I should be sleeping...

It's a Friday afternoon and I really should be sleeping... I have to work tonight. There's so much on my mind lately... Work... school.... cars.... moving... and so much more. Work is work... it never really changes much... School is getting closer to being over with... five more classes after the two that I am taking. Cars... to buy a new one or try to repair my current one.. repairing is much less expensive and makes so much more sense. I'm content to do that right now. I really want to move out of this area. I am so tired of it. I'm thinking of Maine... I don't know a soul there. It sounds like an adventure. I need an adventure.

I feel like so much has changed for me in the past few months. I have been required to become more dependent upon myself and upon God. It hasn't been an easy thing but it's something that I can handle with the help of God. It's a good thing... not a bad thing.

Now... if I can figure out how to look for an engine for my car.... That should be interesting...

J.

Textbooks and such....

Things have been strange for me lately. I do not really know how to put it into words. Today, I spent about an hour trying to find used textbooks because new ones are just way too expensive. Then I did something completely uncharacteristic of myself. I looked at textbooks that were one edition old. I would have never done this before but I realized from looking at the Table of Contents that there was very little difference between one that is a couple years older and a brand new one. This led me to realize that I could purchase one that is one edition older for like $5.00 or a brand new one for $75.00. I decided to try this option. What is the worst thing that happens? I am out $5.00 and have to have the newer edition sent to me a few days into my class. Amazon has free two day shipping... so I can always go down this road later. I know... Strange thing to be excited about. I'm also trying to figure out somewhere affordable to go on vacation in October... hopefully a beach. I don't think we will be able to afford to go to Holden Beach... which makes me sad... but I think finding a rental there will not be as affordable as I need.

Something that really caught my attention at work last night... one of my patient's was telling me how he had a family member that was a medical missionary in Ecuador. Something about that stirred something within me... I don't know how to explain it. Maybe it was that desire as a teenager to be a missionary.. maybe it's nothing... but it's something to ponder upon... Maybe it's time to start learning spanish...

Just some thoughts...

J.

It's June...

Well, It's June. I can honestly say the past few months have been a time of awakening for me. I think that my life really took a turn for a few years that was not what God wanted for me. I'm not sure how to put it into words. I took the control away from God and tried to do things on my own. I am finally now feeling like maybe I'm closer to being on the same page with God. It's not an easy road all the time. I've been thinking about relocating. I really am tired of this area and would love to be able to live somewhere else for a while. Maybe Maine?

J.

Another Tour

It's hard to believe it's Tour time already... not being on the committee this year has not been any fun. I will be glad to go back on the committee next year. I needed this year to concentrate on school and getting through. The school year is almost halfway over which means I am that much closer to having my bachelor's degree in nursing. I know I can do this! There's nothing that can stop me. I'm going to get out on my bike tomorrow and try to readjust to my pedals... that should be humorous.

J.

The car that I think I might be buying soon...

I can't believe it's May already. This year is flying and is almost half over. The good part about that for me is that when this year is over I will finally have a Bachelor's degree.. Then the big decision about what to get a master's degree in. I test drove a new car today. A brand new car. I really like it too. Now, I have to crunch the numbers and figure out if I can afford it or not. I have had my car for 12 years, it has served me well but I'm ready for something new!!

Work is going well... I have been being charge nurse some which has been an interesting experience to say the least. I was floated to another floor one night last weekend and went voluntarily another night so Juanita would not have to float. I think that I need a change though. I need to learn something new... I realized when I was on another floor that not everywhere is as crazy as where I'm at. I want to learn and grow and become a much better nurse.

The weather has been beautiful and I've been out riding my bike more. I enjoy that. I need to find something that I can be passionate about and maybe that is it. We will see.


J.

Updates

Yay for Mondays!

Most people see Monday as the day that they have to go back to work... Monday mornings are a whole different thing for me. Monday mornings are the morning that I say yay! It is now the weekend for me! Because on Monday morning my work week is over until Friday at 6:38PM!! I had an okay weekend at work. I was in charge last night which is great but it adds more responsibility to me that keeps me hopping. I ran into someone from my past that made me think about a few things. The boy was back this morning. Two weeks without him to draw my patient's labs in the morning made 4AM quite dull. The boy is quite fun and someone that I really like being friends with. Well.. It is off to bed with me. I have much to accomplish this afternoon.

J.