God is Trustworthy??

I went to small group last evening... and our small group has been focusing on the sermon from that week. I missed church Sunday but I listened to it on the net... One of the benefits of an up and coming church... sermons on the internet. Anyway it was all about Mark 4:

35That day when evening came, he said to his disciples, "Let us go over to the other side."
36Leaving the crowd behind, they took him along, just as he was, in the boat. There were also other boats with him.
37A furious squall came up, and the waves broke over the boat, so that it was nearly swamped.
38Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on a cushion. The disciples woke him and said to him, "Teacher, don't you care if we drown?"
39He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, "Quiet! Be still!" Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.
40He said to his disciples, "Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?"
41They were terrified and asked each other, "Who is this? Even the wind and the waves obey him!"

I thought a lot about this... Do I really trust God? I think for me it's one of those hard to explain things... When it comes down to it... I think I trust God in the big things but I'm not sure that I always trust Him in the little things. I tend to like that control over my life but in reality I don't think that control benefits me. I think that if I would place that trust in everything in His hands then everything would go smoother for me. Or maybe it wouldn't... but I think maybe I would doubt things less and maybe some other things would make more sense... I don't know... I'm still thinking on this pretty hard. I may post more later.

J.

Another Picture...

I'm obviously a picture freak. Give me a waterproof digital camera and it is obviously all over. I am one of those people that takes so many pictures that I tend to annoy people. I'm sitting in my chair. My big furry blonde dog, Sara is snoozing by the fireplace and of course Noah is in mother's lap. It is actually cool enough today to have to gas logs on and between the fire and the candles that mother has lit I could go back to sleep. Of course I did work last night so I'm tired anyway. I was able to get a name tag with "RN" on it today. That was so exciting to me. I have been waiting for that day for so long.

Today I thought of sea kayaks and bike rides. I thought about crab cake sandwiches and yellow fin tuna sandwiches. I thought about long walks on the beach and dangling my feet in the canal. I thought about the privacy that having an upstairs bedroom offered me that I don't typically get. The sound of the ocean and the breeze. I cant even verbalized what my time at Holden Beach has meant to me. I wonder what my dog would think about the ocean? I know she hates rain so she very likely wouldn't like the ocean.

Back to studying I go... I will try hard not to daydream about nice days at the ocean...

J,

One of the Most Beautiful Places

Of all the places I've been... This one is still burned in my memory... This one will stay with me. Last year for Memorial Day... My friend Patty was going to get her son Hayden from her parent's beach house.. I was invited to go along. I met two very nice and gracious hosts... George and Judy. I had an awesome time and they offered their rental house to my mother and I for next to nothing. Last year we were there the week before this week and we had such a wonderful time. The next week Judy found out she had a really rare form of cancer... there's very few cases of it in the world and from what I hear it usually kills you in less than a year. In August of this year we found out that the cancer is basically everywhere and thought that Judy didn't have long. She started an experimental type of chemo and she is currently feeling slightly better. She wants to live till Thanksgiving... we all hope she lives past Christmas... but with cancer who knows... IT sucks... They even sent me a present for graduation and becoming an RN... here she is sick with cancer... and she still manages to send me something so sweet.

So... Holden Beach will always have special meaning to me... and I will keep praying for Judy and remembering them every time I see pictures like this.

Jenn

Cakes, Cakes, Cakes!!

This has been such an exciting couple months for me. First, in June passing my clinical test. The test that scared me more than any other... then passing state boards in September... then graduating in September... then getting my Tennessee RN license in October! I've been waiting ever so impatiently! I thought all this was never going to happen... or more it felt like it was never going to happen. Now... I'm just in that period of relief. Today to make things even more fun Jamie, Patty and Hayden got me an awesome pumpkin candle and pumpkin room spray... and George and Judy sent me a gift card to Carabba's!!! I love Italian food!! What an awesome support system I truly have...


Jenn

Third Cake

Last night Mary and Suzy Ray brought this cake to me for getting my Tennessee license! Do I feel loved or what??

Second Cake

This is the second cake that I received for passing my state board exam! This one was from Rhonda and Erin.

First Cake from Juanita

This is my first cake that I received after my clinical exam from Juanita at work

Thoughts...

It's hard to believe that after all this time I am an RN now... It doesn't even seem real to me. I started a new small group last week. We didn't meet this week due to a death in Dale and Kim's family... but I am excited to be once again involved in a group. I have also started working on my bachelors classes. I am not going to let any grass grow under my feet! I want to get this show on the road!!! I want to keep going while I am motivated to keep going!

Speaking of that... I need to study!

Jennifer

Pray for Hayden

For all of those who read my blog... I would love for you to take a minute and read Hayden's blog. This is not the Hayden that I consider my adopted nephew... this is little Hayden that's grandparents are friends of our family... just not to confuse people....

Anyways... here is little Hayden's blog link:

www.hayden-johnson.blogspot.com

There is also an actual link in the blog list on the side of my blog.

Thanks!

The Waiting Game....

Well... I feel so relived to have boards and everything over with. Now.. I'm just sitting... waiting.... waiting on that TN license... Until then... In Tennessee I am still an LPN... but in the grand state of Minnesota I could go and practice nursing... kind of funny huh?

I guess this week is really about waiting... Little Hayden having surgery... and his family waiting all day yesterday to hear hopefully good news... My Mother and I waiting to see if they have updated their blog and how he is doing.... Patty's mother is waiting to see what the experimental treatment will do... Just a lot of things this week.

I've already started the process of applying for a bachelor's program so that I can keep going with my education. Luke's Mom was asking me what field I was going to go into too... that is honestly a very good question. I will either continue to work Med-Surg or I will look at transferring to like ER or ICU depending on what I plan to get my master's degree in. If I do nurse practitioner then I can continue to work in the same area... if I do nurse anesthetist then I would have to transfer to the ICU. It's a lot of decisions to make. and a lot of thinking to do. I think the worst is now behind me though.

I started going to a new small group at church last night.... I think it's going to work really well for me... At least I hope so.

Jenn